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  1. author: Jack Shedd
  2. content: 'But I want no part in [photographs]. I don''t want to stare at some photo
  3. of me at 21 when I''m 50 and contemplate everything I was, or could have been. I
  4. don''t want to have to drown in partial truths, grasping at a falling memory to
  5. paint in details. I''d rather either remember, or not. Rather know, or forget. I''d
  6. rather be able to molt my life as it goes, letting the useless bits drop away as
  7. the important becomes more dear.
  8. When I reach backwards into my life, I want to know what I find to have been defining.
  9. To have been something I couldn''t shake, couldn''t let go of. I want to forget
  10. the pointless birthday parties, and the group shots at the bars where so-and-so
  11. is making that face she makes, and I''m half-drunk, and look that''s what''s his
  12. face that guy who dated whoever that is. I want to reach and find the things I couldn''t
  13. photograph: the moments I knew, the moments we forgot; the street sign all lit up
  14. with sun as our car drove towards home; the view of the skyline when I left; the
  15. dodge balls as they barreled towards me; the way it felt to run in the rain, drunk
  16. and mad, screeching towards the bar like a five-year old on a sugar high.
  17. I''d rather be able to forget, so that I can remember.'
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